don't fall away...

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 03:45:23 GMT

I have been suckered into working this Saturday. Because I'm a puss and a big fat push over. Oh well. I sort of got my way. I'm only working half a day so that's good. Whatever.

Tomorrow is Friday! My husband will be home from his training! I've missed him bunches. Although it has been sort of nice with some quiet "me time". It's given me some time to focus and psyche myself out for this diet program. I'm really excited about it. I guess it's all the testimonials or something. People have lost gobs of weight on this thing. It's amazing. There are people that have lost 100s of pounds! I only hope I can be so lucky. To lose weight, not 100s of pounds. I don't need to lose THAT much. Pretty damned close, though.

Tomorrow night I am going to spend the evening cleaning the cupboard and pantry. I'm going to rid our house of any and all temptations. It's going in the trash or it's going to Mom's. She won't (or, I should say CAN'T) eat any of it but Dad surely will. Oh, and Mom has lost 18 pounds in a week, not 14. I'm floored. Talked to Anna this morning and, mostly jokingly, said "I have competition!" Anna looked at me in disbelief and said "Melissa. You CANNOT compete with that!" She's partially right. No, I can't compete with that kind of weight loss but I CAN use it to motivate me. Come on... who in their right mind wants their mother to be skinnier than they are?? Shallow and petty, maybe... but that's just me. Pictures of actors and models.. that shit doesn't inspire me to want to lose weight. It never really did because in the back of my mind I knew that models and actors are VERY well paid. And they're paid to look that good. And if they don't look that good then they can pay someone to make them look that good. And if all else fails, there's always airbrushing. I can't compete with THAT. But my mom is a real person that I can relate to. So is my sister and so are my coworkers and others around me. They inspire me to be thin. That and pictures of my thinner self.

That being said... moving right along....

I am really wanting this cookbook. I am not a cook. I enjoy it, but I'm not very good at it. I am awesome, however, at following directions. And I can measure like you wouldn't believe. Heh... I figure this cookbook could help. Plan a week's worth of meals and snacks. Cook everything up on a Sunday. Freeze leftovers in pre-measured serving sized platters and voila.. food for folks on the go! And that's my plan. I just have to convince myself that it's worth the $20.00 investment. I'm sure it is.

For some reason I've been getting some pretty bad headaches for the past few days. One of which turned into a full blown migraine like the one I have now is threatening to become if I don't get off this freaking computer in a hurry. Ugh. One more day of hell. (Saturdays are ok because there's no one breathing down your neck.) Next week should be a blast. My supervisor is going to see her brother in Germany. He was shot in Iraq a few days ago. Really puts that bullshit in perspective. Have I mentioned how incredibly happy I am that my husband is NOT in the Army? Yeah...still very happy about that. Anyway. Going to take a pill and crash.

Preliminaries...

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 17:25:29 GMT

So, testing out my new journal. Its primary use is going to be tracking my weight loss progress. But first things first...I am going to be utilizing The Six Week Body Makeover program to help me reach my goal.

Here are my beginning stats:

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Current Weight: 210 lbs
Current Pant Size: 16/18
Current BMI: Unknown
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Short Term Goal: 180 - 190 lbs by Christmas
Long Term Goal: 145 0 150 lbs by Summer 2005
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Goals Met = Rewards

10 lbs lost: Haircut and color.
20 lbs lost: New Shoes.
30 lbs lost: New work out clothes.
40 lbs lost: Order $100 worth of Make Up!
50 lbs lost: Old Navy Card + shopping spree!
60 lbs lost: Vacation at the Beach! (Plus new swim suit.) OR, providing Tony and I can both get vacation time, a trip to Pennsylvania to visit my sisters!
Any further weight loss will be a reward in and of itself.

I will begin the diet on Sunday October 24th and I'll begin the workout regimen on Monday October 25th.

Journey to a New Me

don't fall away...

Preliminaries...